Tuesday, March 6, 2007
Answer and Question

Well, this is it liao. I'm nearly done with my Qc module liao. Time really flies. The course is coming to an end soon. I am nearly at the ending point of the course now. Well, today I nearly burned off my finger during the phase test but I calmly put out the fire with my another hand and continue on doing the test. I hoped the lecturer didn't notice cos I don't want my marks to be deduct. Anyway, it's only a smal fire. It's nothing. Sometimes, I really don't understand myself. If I see a cockroach at home, I would be very frightened and stand on a chair but if I'm outside and I saw cockroach, I would just walked away and stay far from it. Anyway, today, can I say everything is clear. I know liao but not by them telling, i asked. It has been quite some times liao. They say when they thought I'm angry.

Well, I'm not angry. Why should I be angry at my friends? I am happy for them. I don't feel angry, I feel tired and maybe bits of disappointment ba. Angry is angry, disappointment is disappointment. These are 2 different things. I rather a friend be angry with me den him being disappointed by me. I hate to disappoint people. I don't like that feeling. It's not a good feeling. Well, up to now, I am still waiting for a rely to a question i posed. I don't know what is the answer but deep inside me, I think I know it but nothing is confirm until I heard it with my ears. Maybe a lot of people thought I lose my temper easily cos my face is black well you don't understand de. I'm a very complicated person. I tend not to show my feelings on my face. I accept acceptable and logical reasons if you can point it out to me. I'm a reasonable person. Don't assume you know me cos I'm still trying to know myself. I'm still trying to be a better person. I'm not prefect, I'm no god. I am only a human being. I also got my dreams and thinking. Just because I'm older doesn't change everything ba. I also will get affected by the people around me, moodswings or whatever. I don't like to be unhappy, moody or what. I like to feel good also. Please don't make me into the person I don't want to be. Do you understand?

Labels: Angry? Disappointment?