Tuesday, September 30, 2008

Ya, this is a updated photo of the mdc medics. Ya, I managed to find 32 of us. Haha. There are still 4 more persons that I never found. Well, I rushed out this photo for christopher as he will be flying off to New York City tonight at 2350 plane. I don know when will he b back again but ever since the wall.e movie outing. I discovered that actually I do missed the days at the mdc as well. The jokes we played, the duties we did, the cleaning of the mdc. I had never ever clean my room till that level I did for my mdc. Mayb it's becos we were forced to. Haha.



Ya, this is a combined games characters we played most frequence in the mdc. Ya, looking at this brings back memories of the mdc. Winning eleven, mario party, Dreamworld: Tv mix were some of the most popular games. As it allowed 4 to play at a time. Haha.

Thinking back, we would usually gang up and fight those medic that we "don like". Especially Gary Chiu, he will to whine a lot and complain a lot but he is a good fellow. Very soft on the inside.

Though the time at mdc isn't all fun. I remembered the IQA days... The days of cleaning the mdc from head to toe. We had to clean everything up and make it spotless. Even my room wasn't this clean before. I remember wiping the fan abt 2 floors high. I was up alone on the upper rung of the ladder. Now that I remember it was also quite dangerous. But those were the days. I had never thought so much at that point of time.

No matter how hard the days might seems at that point of time, how many punishment we were being given, how many unfairness n blames were pushed to us... It has all passed for mi liao. It has been 4 yrs liao since I ord. At that point of time while i was still suffering, I thought time passed rather slowly but now... 4 yrs liao.... Memories of sweet n bitter.... Unfair seniors... Fun juniors.... Those were the days that will never b returned.

There r so many incidents that happened during that period of time. I muz really thank Chan who stood by mi, trustin mi n helping mi out when neccessary. Joshua for his funny jokes who kept us amused all the way. Garie (actually he shld thank mi for playin wif him, cos i'm the only 1 who can stand his fun.) for his funny action of protecting mi?

Beside them, Jiazhen was the one who watched the most movies wif mi even though nowadays i seldom contact him lol. He was the one whom I kept in touch wif the longest. The rest all by now hav either vanished liao. Actually, I was the one who vanished from them.

Now we all hav different lives to lead, our paths hav crossed before & if we r lucky (or unlucky), our paths will cross again in the future!

I shall keep my fingers crossed.....

It never hurts to hope rite?

Monday, September 29, 2008
Mon

Well, todae I went interview for a eng wah post at 10 am in the orchard. I met up Kenny after my interview. We went walked ard. He wan to go to HMV n take a look at the DVDs, thus we go. After that We went to plaza singapura at his request. For the 3rd time continuous, I went to plaza singapura again. Haha.

After that we went suntec to walk, raffles city to walk n lastly funan centre. Well, Kenny got a lot of DVDs to buy n he got too little money. I tink he spent most of his money on DVDs. Haha. These few days, I walked quite a lot.... I tink my legs deserved a rest from walking too much. haha.


Oh well, holidays r ending soon....

Sunday, September 28, 2008
Sunday

Todae, I went out wif Da ge... Haha... We went to chinatown to take a look at the toy fleamarket. After that, we went to plaza singapura. We played arcade n have burger king as a dinner. After that, we walked ard. We could hear the F1 racing cars sound from plaza singapura. We went to buy some drinks n made our way to the grand cathay where I went to look at DVDs.

After that, we decided to make our way to suntec to c the F1 race. We walked to citylink. The area was so crowded n noisy. A lot of ppl r excitied but not mi. Haha. I am nt interested in cars or racing. We walked to suntec where a lot of shops r closed... We had to walk to chinatown again in fear that the buses will b very crowed wif ppl.

It was really a tiring day for mi. Walking n walking. I tink todae I walked a lot.... Haha. After taking bus home, Da ge n I went to sit under a void deck to chat till 1am when he make his way home. Ya, gd times always passed so fast de. Y is that so?

Saturday, September 27, 2008
weekends

Ya, todae is the last day of work. I'm so glad... Last day to wake up early liao? Haha... Anyway, it's the weekend. I met up YC abt 4pm at plaza singapura... We went to watch a movie. Connected... This is one of the recent HK movie I would recommend to watch. It is quite action pack. Haha. The story is abt a guy who received a call from a female stranger requesting for help.

1 thing I found out after watching the movie. The cast always consist of a handsome male lead n a pretty female lead. In real life, if I really received a call for help, I doubt the other party will b a pretty gal. Haha. So morale of the story, u muz ask the other side if he or she are good looking or nt. Mayb den it is worth ur effort to save them.

Example 1.

The phone ring.
"Hello?" I asked
"Help! Ps help mi..." A female voice..
"Hmmm, r u pretty?" I will ask...
"I am Michelle... My name is Xueling." the stranger say.
"I'm sorry to say u don qualify... Bye bye..." I will say. "Try another number ba.."

Example 2.

The phone ring.
"Hello?" I asked
"Help! Ps help mi..." A female voice..
"Wat is ur name?" I asked "Wat happen?"
"My name is moomoo. I have been kidnapped.. U r my only hope..." The stranger say...
"Huh, I'm sorry... The connection is very bad.... I can't hear wat r u saying... Ur voice is very soft...." I will say...
"Help, they will come back any moment..." the stranger continued..
"Huh? I'm sorry... U hav to speak up..." Prentend to speak softer n softer. Den cancel the call....

Example 3.

The phone ring.
"Hello?" I asked
"Help! Ps help mi..." A female voice..
If u don wish to handle this type of call. juz say out the below sentence.
"This is a telecom annoucement service, the number you just call is not in use. Thank you."

Example 4.

The phone ring.
"Hello?" I asked
"Help! Ps help mi..." A female voice..
"Welcome to the calling centre for help. Press 1 for very beautiful gals, Press 2 for pleasant looking gals, if u r ugly n fat, ps hang up ur call immediately..."

Haha, the above are meant to b jokes...

Anyway, after the movies. We met up wif Calvin n Lijin. We went over to cineleisure to eat at HK tea restaurant. Yc makes a whole lots of jokes. He kept singing to the sings n shakes his body. Lijin giggles like mad when she saw this. Anyway the 3 of us r laughing like mad. We ate till eleven pm plus... Den we make our way home. Haha. We r meeting next sat for seoul garden.

Friday, September 26, 2008
Fri

Yaaaa, the last 2 days of work. I am really tired of waking up so early....

Todae, I realised something..... Foreign workers r really to b pitied....

Their pay r so low.... They came all over to sg to work... Signing a contact of 4 yrs.... Unable to return home.... They couldn't spend time wif their families.... They r bound wif strict rules...
They had to make ends meet....

While filing, I noticed some foreign workers are as young as 19 yrs old.... 19 yrs old n they r already earning money her to sent back to their families. I don think sg parents would let their 19 yrs old child to go overseas to work.

While, most of the foreign workers came from poor countries... They had no choice but to come over sg to work as the sg dollars r more higher than their own countries money... I can imagined 1 of my classmate will make this remark. "who ask them to b poor? who ask them to b born in a poor country"

Well, I can say, you don hav a choice to b born rich or poor. You oso couldn't choose the country u wan to. Sg is oso a place that has high cost of living. So the foreign workers really hav to send money back home as well as to save some to live in sg.

Ya... I truly thanked these workers who came to sg to work. It is them who have made the economy stable. Earning so less n yet doing so much.... The singaporeans muz really thank everyone of u for working so hard..

Thursday, September 25, 2008
Thurs

Ya, working n working.....

I tink I'm nt allowed to work OT. Haha... The ppl alwys ask mi to go home when it's time to knock off. I actually plan on working OT everyday but it seems that they don wan mi to. Well, it's ok for mi ba. I juz wan to save money to buy some stuffs that I wan de.

Besides, this week, I can't really go out wif friends.... Haha... Anyway, I met Andy at Jurong point after work todae.... We went walking ard.... Eating KFC... Ya, the hot devil drumlets are released again. I ate Fiery BBQ. It really was spicy. Something unpleasant happen todae n I do nt wish to write it out on the blog. I juz wish to forget abt it ba. Singaporeans r getting more demanding n their attitude are getting worse.... They are getting harder to please. Mayb I looked like someone easy to bully. So... I don wan to lose my cool becos of a stranger I don know... So wat, u tink u r right... Ur EQ is sooooo... low till it makes u inhuman... Pointed ur 3rd finger won't change the fact either... It only make ppl think u r inmature wif ur thinking....

Sometimes, I really wonder.... People really don think....

Wednesday, September 24, 2008
Wed

Well, my new time table is out liao. Sch is starting in 2 weeks time? Sian, I really enjoyed the holidays..... The gd thing abt this upcoming semester is wed, my sch start in the noon n fri end at 12pm. Ya, I believed the studies will b getting harder liao.... Wif A maths coming.... I don really looked forward to it... But i muz still try ba... Da ge time table n mine don really match. it will b difficult to go home together liao.... haha...

Well, I muz try to enjoy the last 2 weeks of holiday.... Ya, there is a class outing coming up.... I'm still thinking whether I shld go or nt.... Having mixed feelings abt it......

Tuesday, September 23, 2008
hmmm

Well, I have been meaning to write this post for quite sometime liao.... N I shall dwell on it now... Moomoo gave mi the inspiriation to write this post de. I remembered we were chatting on the phone 2 weeks ago.... When we tok abt her ex- bfs. She told mi she had deleted their contact numbers from her hp. She had done a lot of things to forget them so that she could move on wif her new life. She don wan to b remind of them. She now prayed to god for strength to help her out wif her life.

Ok, my intention is not to say anything against her religion. We r free to choose watever we believed in.

But I felt wat Moomoo did was wrong. No one can forgot unhappiness or the past. The more u try, the more u won't forget....

I firmly believed it is wat that has happened in the past, that made us the way we r now. No matter the memories r gd or bad... This is life.... Life is nt a bed of roses de. There r ups n downs... This is reality...

Ya, the memories which u had r so bad for u? Aren't there any moments that u cherish de? I know, there r no more relationship between both of u liao... But in the past, he never did anything to touch u? There r no gd memories at all? I know u were hurt by his actions that's y u break off wif him. He did something that upset u de. But I'm sure that there is something which he did to touch ur heart de.

Well, we only live once. We only passed this way once... No matter gd or bad, we have to take it to understand wat life is all about. It is this way that we will know wat is growing up....

I oso was being hurt by ppl in the past. I oso feel like easing them from my mind but I could never forget abt them. Even though they never did appear in front of mi again but once in a blue moon, I would still dreamt of them. Whenever I saw them in my dreams, the painful things would appear once again. I couldn't control my dreams. I realised no matter wat I did, they were still part of my memories. The only thing I could do is to accept the fact. They might have hurt mi in the past n that is wat made mi I am now. But my memories are not abt them oso. There r oso others which I treasured.

No matter wat they did, I truly thanked every one of them from the bottom of my heart. Thy world is a small place, who knows ard the next corner u might bump into them. Bumping into them doesn't mean u can pretend u don know that person.....

I think we all wish we could erase some dark times in our lives. But all of life's experiences, bad and good make you who you are. Erasing any of life's experiences would be a great mistake.

Monday, September 22, 2008
wah...

Well, it has been sometimes since I blog. Ya, this is a post that I am making up for the week I never posted however the date will b reflected as if it is last week. I'm typing this on 30/9/08 but I will set this post as 22/9/08.

Now let mi tell u wat I did last week. I signed a contact wif Recruit Express for a week admin job. I was attached to the HR dept. The company is in Tuas. Ya, everyday I need to transfer 3 buses to reach that company. So everyday, I took 6 buses to n fro. Lucky, this is only for a week. I wake up at 0530 everyday.

The first day of work, guess wat. I met someone familiar. Sri my ex-ite course mate. The world is such a small place. She oso signed a 2 month contact wif Recruit Express to the same company. She was attached to the IS dept I tink. IS dept is something to do computer software de, I tink.

Well for my first day, actually throughout the week, I was in charge of filing. Slotting in the pay increament in the different files. The company has employ a lot of foreign workers to work. So the work I am doing is very routine. I need to check the employer tag number on the file n match it wif the same employer document. If it is, I juz need to file in. The papers r already arranged in order liao. So I juz need to take the file out one by one will do.

Sunday, September 21, 2008
Rearranging

Ya, todae I did some rearranging of my blog posts. Ever since I found out I could link back the post n published it on the date I wan, I swore that I will do some rearranging. Todae I finally sort it all out liao. I edited the may 08 posts. Due to my laziness, there were a number of them being published way back their original dates so I finally put them in the dates I wanted. Haha. Mayb, I could published some of my old posts that I never did make time for it de. But den, those who were reading my blog will never know unless u refer back to the past de. haha. I shall c how ba.

Ya, it occur to mi liao, if i really do create some posts to b published in the old dates, den my posts will all b pushed back. Den my current 100th post won't b my 100 post liao. Haha. Tomo I start my work liao. I need to wake up at 0530 everyday for a week. I don't know if I am up to it or not. Haha. I don know if I hav the time to meet up friends as well due to my work commitment. I shall c how ba.

Da GE, where hav u been during the holidays......
R u currently on earth or wat?
I will, no... I muz, do something to get u out again.....

Saturday, September 20, 2008
outing...

Wed, I have received a job offer to go back to my previous company to work. Well, I am still thinkin whether shld I go back or nt as I usually don go back to my ex-companies de. Besides that, working in that company bring back certain memories that I am nt veri fond of. Haha.
As it is only for a week, I tink I will grab the chance to earn some money ba.

Thurs, I went out wif my army friend Junyuan todae. It has been a really long time since I saw him. Todae I am super hyper on walking. I walked for 7-8 hours. From funan to city link. From city link to suntec, from suntec to bugis, from bugis to sim lim, from sim lim to bugis, from bugis to bras plaza complex, from bras plaza complex to shaw house, from shaw house back to suntec. Well, todae is a walking day for mi. Junyuan was so tired, I don think he ever walked for so long. He kept asking mi to carry him. Haha.

Fri, I went out wif Wilson. Quite sometimes since we went out ba. Haha. He asked mi out at 5pm. We went to causeway point to watch disaster movie. It is juz another one of those lame movies which combine lots of movies scenes inside. I laugh abt 3 times ba. After that we went to lot 1 arcade. He played initial d 3 3 times n a metal gear racing game 2 times. We played daytona 1 time. We never completed a lap. Haha. N i'm faster than him by 12 seconds. Ya, we played silent hills again. Ya, I'm confidence that i am better at this game den him. Haha. Cos I score higher. After the arcade, we went back to our town where we sit under a void deck to tok till 1am. I liked these talking session between friends as I will understand more of my friends. He asked mi whether am i interested to go to the zoo wif him on sat but I rejected him as sat was a day I reserved for yc n others.....

Sat, I shld hav went to the zoo wif Wilson. As Yc juz called mi that he got guard duty tomo. He couldn't come out todae. Haiz, so as of now.... I hav watched finish a jap show. Mayb I will ask others to go out ba as I oso don wan Yc to rush ard. Todae is a gd weather again. C how ba...

Friday, September 19, 2008
another....

You are Somebody who does not try to make yourself look grand.

You are naturally good natured, and although you tend to be bit aloof from the world, you have warmness that attracts people.

You are a person of integrity.

People think you as someone who is always by their side.

You give an impression of someone easy to get on with.

You have grace and intelligence, and there's something about you that makes other people admire you.

You have a very sensitive personality.

You may have cried your eyes out by watching an emotional film.

Your sensitiveness makes you not trust others easily.

But even if you can not trust them, you will not get in a conflict.

You think high of your senses and a will power to put into action.

You are extremely good at handling work as well as personal relationships.

You dislike having to bow down to authority.

You have a strong will to stand against something that is unreasonable, and will refuse orders even if it is from your boss.

You have a fighting spirit that you don't show often.

You tend to place your self a step back in a society, so you lack ambition and a desire to succeed.

But because of this, you don't have desire for material things, and will gain trust of the others.

You are kind to those around you, and hard on yourself.

Thursday, September 18, 2008
Curator

You are a Curator

You are straightforward and real, down-to-earth, and have a healthy respect for order and stability. These attributes, complemented by your desire to be surrounded by things of beauty, make you a CURATOR.

You don't feel the need to try everything new that comes along – you know what you like and what you want.

You are a no-nonsense person, not someone who falls for pretensions.

Being strongly grounded in the here-and-now, you are practical and realistic about yourself and your life.

You find comfort and calmness in your habits and routines.

Although others might not know this about you, you strongly appreciate aesthetic qualities, noticing whether something is well-designed and stylish.

You have a refined sense of taste, and you want your environments to reflect your preferred style.

There are times when you feel insecure and vulnerable, even though you know deep down that you are a good person.

You aren't narcissistic – you allow yourself to be realistic about your positive and negative qualities.

You're not one to force your positions on a group, and you tend to be fair in evaluating different options.

You're not afraid to let your emotions guide you, and you're generally considerate of others' feelings as well.

You do your own thing when it comes to clothing, guided more by practical concerns than by other people's notions of style.

If you want to be different:

It wouldn't hurt to indulge your imagination and creativity sometimes. These are skills like any other, and develop with practice, so try to carve out some time for them in your life.
Try to quiet your inner feelings of doubt – you will be more successful if you can overcome these worries and focus on your many strengths, such as your responsible and honest nature.

how you relate to others

You are Considerate

You trust others, care about them, and are slow to judge them, making you CONSIDERATE.

You value your close relationships very much, and are more likely to spend time in small, tightly-knit groups of friends than in large crowds.

You enjoy exploring the world through observation, quietly watching others.

Relating to others so well, and understanding their emotions, leads you to trust people in general, even though you're somewhat shy and reserved at times.

Your belief that people are generally well-intentioned contributes to your sympathy regarding their problems.

Although you may not vocalize it often, you have an awareness of how society affects individuals, and you understand complex causes of people's behavior.

You like to look at all sides of a situation before making a judgment, particularly when that situation involves important things in other people's lives.

Your close friends know you as a good listener.

If you want to be different:

Because other people would benefit immensely from your understanding and insight, you should try to be more outgoing in social situations, even when they make you uncomfortable. Others will want to hear what you have to say!

XXXXX

This is a personal DNA test I took.

The link is http://www.personaldna.com/

Go ahead if u wan to try....

Labels: A curator, I am...

Wednesday, September 17, 2008
Games

feeling kinda bored....
Don feel like goin out....
These few days......
Do this pic for fun....
combine some of the beloved gaming characters...
it will b wonderful if there is ever a game which feature the popular characters....

Juz realised that nobody seems to like Bomberman....
The pictures r quite hard to find especially the others colour bomberman like black, blue, red n more....

Ya, I broke my saturn bomberman cd... make it crack... i so sian... since that is one of my favourite games....

Monday, September 15, 2008
reading n writin n tellin

During my primary six days, I was the top reader of my class. I read more den 600 books for the entire year. The teacher gave us a paper and told us to record whatever we read inside. The person getting the second position read abt 300 books. The third person read abt 200 plus books. U c the differences?

During my secondary sch days, I was awarded the top reader badge for twice in the year. That badge was only given for a year only. To encourage ppl to read. The sch library oso organise ativities to get ppl to read. I remembered at the end of the yr, the library will tally up individual classes' results - The library will go check their records of individual classes that have borrow library books. My class was in the third position, ya due to my impressive records. My class managed to get a box og chocolates? Hahah. I have checked the results myself. For my class's achievement for the library books borrowed, 85% of the books were borrowed by mi alone.

Now, I still like to go to libraries to borrow books to read every now n den.

Reading builds up my imagination. It requires a lot of thinking to think abt wat the author describe.

Reading is wat led to my writing.

It has been years since I wrote anything. Ever since 'O' levels. So now, mayb it's time to continue wat was my interest all these years. These 2 short stories might b juz the beginning. There are ideas in my head that wan to come out but den I am lazy to write. Well, during my secondary sch days, I told a series of ghost stories. I was so pleased wif my first ghost story. I was telling my SJAB friends in the SJAB room. That day was oso dark and stormy. Make the prefect atmosphere for a ghost story. Haha.

The ghost story that I told was of cos a fake one la. Haha. I remembered I was thinkin of how to tell the story while talkin. It was rather difficult for mi. At least that fake story managed to scare a friend of mine who don dare to use her toilet in her house for a nite. She thought my story was true. Haha..... At least I make a person scared for my ghost stories. I never did complete my series of 7 ghost stories. I only told 3. I bumped into a sec sch friend recently and she was tokin on the days of my story telling. She urged mi to continue to write abt the incompleted ghost stories and sent to her by email. Haha.

But I shall c how ba....

Sunday, September 14, 2008
Weekends.....

I spend my sat wif YC, we went orchard again... For dunno how many times liao. Princess was sick that day so she never turn up for work. Or else we could b havin dinner together. Haha. So we went to chinatown to hav a walk. Ya, I was using yc's nds pokemon game to transfer all my pokemon over so that I could replay my pokemon. Haiz, if only I haven't lose mine I would hav completed the pokemon game liao. Now I got to replay again. Sianz.



Sun, Weiann n marie came over my house together. We were playin mario party on my gamecube. It was Weiann's 1st time seein gamecube. Haha. Ya, he used to own a sega saturn oso. We were playin Bomberman SS when marie came over.... They had dinner at my house before leaving n soon I went to meet YC at lot one be4 he book in....

My weekend were spend like that....

Friday, September 12, 2008
Friday

Wooh, Finally......

Da ge make time for mi..... Haha.... We went to suntec again. To drink milktea. My greastest achievement of the day was...... I managed to squeeze 3 toys of a faulty slot machine. Haha. We went arcade again. Oh well, it was another enjoyable day for mi. Haha. We went to eat popeyes for dinner. It was da ge's first time eating. It was my 5th.

Anyway, It's a happy happy day for mi as usual ba. Haha.

Thursday, September 11, 2008
Explaining....

Well, mayb it's time to say something abt the posts published on 3/9/08 and 29/8/08.

Abt the posts on A mother's love and A dog's loyal.

These are actually 2 fiction stories that I wrote for fun. I used to write stories when I was young. I liked reading and I have read a lot of books.


A dog's loyal

This idea was concieved when I read a book borrowed from the library in 2002. 6 years liao. Haha. Of coz, it will b better if it is in chinese as well but still ok for mi. This story is more simple to write.

I typed out this story in 2 hours, I edited a bit and extended a part of it. The story posted is now a 2nd edition liao. Haha.


A mother's love.

This idea was actually concieved in 1998. This idea lie in mi for so long liao. 10 years before I finally wrote it out. It will b much better if this story is written in chinese. It will be more touching. Sometimes, I find that chinese words are difficult to translate into english wif its original meaning. Well, I gave up the idea of writin in chinese as few ppl like to read chinese and typing chinese words is veri tirin for mi where my han yu pin yin suxs.

For this story, it was divided into 3 parts, the introducing of the jade bangle, the beginnning of the quarrel and the explaining. This story is more complex than the dog's story.

The ending of the story was actually the first paragraph I typed. I typed out the introducing part next. The explaining part was actually the hardest part to think, cos I needed it to b logic so that was the last to b typed out.

The post that was published undergo lots of edits. It is currently in its 4th edition. Lijin read the 2nd edition, Moomoo readed the 3rd edition de. The first edition was very difficult from the 2nd edition, initially This story setting I wanted to write abt in the 1st place was I had a grandmother wearing a jade bangle (who was brought this aunt whom I never known of) n I knew this story through by mom. After typing 3/4 finsh, I find that it is not touching enough so I changed the setting to wat it was now.

In the 1st story setting, I was a third character in the story. It's difficult to relate to those who was elder de. So I changed the setting to a different angle.

the 3rd edition I extended the last paragraph n extended the part of the big sis n 2nd sis. 4th edition was nothing much, I juz read through n rephase some sentences and changed some typing errors.


Overall

Writing a story is very tiring. My english is not good. I got to check out the spelling, defination, did I use correctly. Of cos, the story got to b logic oso. Muz make the story smooth. Tiring lol. but I was quite pleased wif the 2 stories. Lijin was quite touched wif the 2nd story. Haha. Mayb due to I put my initial W.K. in the story. There r many who thought this was based on true story of my life.

The character W.K. in the story 'a mother's love' is in his thirty liao. I haven't reached the age of 30 lol. I am still in my twenties. Haha.

Wednesday, September 10, 2008
prepaid card

Ok, I juz realised....

A prepaid card suxs....

Well, I don know abt others....

but mine juz suxs....

I shut down my hp at nite de....

In the morning when I turn on my hp....

I expected to c msgs as sometimes I sms ppl at nite....

In the morning, I will expects the answers....

but no phone indicate no sms....

the msgs will only come in the late afternoon.....

when I checked the details of the msgs....

it show.... msg sent 2345... msg received 1634....

C the time differences?

more den 12 hrs....

Yesterdae, I sms Da ge at nite....

I waited till 1.30am for his rely but no rely den I turn off my hp....

In d morning 9am.... I switch on my hp....

No msg......

I was ready sure that he will rely mi de.....

until I tried usin my house phone to call my hp....

I miss call it....

true enough the msgs started comin in....

Moral of the story.....

I got to call myself everyday in the morning....

Tuesday, September 9, 2008
comic clearing

Hi, this holidays I hav been clearing up my room. I juz thrown out 138 comics books as I got too many of it liao. I still left over 1000++ books wif some still at my friends' house. I don tink I will take it from them for the time being. My room has no spaces for the comics liao. I am planning to look through my vcd, dvd and cd collection to c which ones I do not want.

I think this time round I am ready to throw out the things that I shld hav throw long ago. I will harden my heart to throw it all out liao. Startin from the comics liao. Well, it's time to clear my room now....

Let this b a short post for now.....

Sunday, September 7, 2008
another random post.

Ya, I am typing out this incident where I was at a comic connection. I was quite irriated by these 3 gals who were standing in front of the comic shelves, blocking my view. Worse of all, talkin as if they were at home. They never cared abt others and went on toking loudly.

Gal A : "I don like my bf!"

Gal B: "Huh?"

Gal A: "I don like my bf!"

Gal C:"Y?"

Gal B: "Ur bf now in army is it?"

Gal A: "Ya. I don feel like goin put wif him this week."

Gal C: "Y?"

Gal A: "I don like him. His hand kept touchin mi."

Gal B: "His hand?"

Gal A: "He keep touchin that part lol."

Gal B & C : "That part?"

Gal A: "Ya, that part lol. He keep wanting to touch my that part. I don like it."

Gal B: "Which part r u tokin abt?"

Gal A: "Obviously lol, that part la."

Gal B: "I don understand...."

Gal A looked ard and whisper in Gal B's ear.

Gal B: "Oh that part la. Haha."

Gal C: "U n him r a couple ma. Don need to feel shy de la."

Gal A: "I don like it la. I very shy la when he touch me there. Very itchy somemore."

Gal C was holding up a comic.

Gal A: "Don buy that book, not nice de. The cover veri nice but the content nt good."

Gal B: "How u know?"

Gal A: "Obviously, I hav bought that book lol. The cover looked very R rated but it is not that R rated lol. Waste my money to buy."

Gal C: "Wow, u want to buy that type of book for wat?"

Gal A: "Curious ma. U oso not curious ma? We shld buy the books wif a warnin sign that stated unsuitable for the young."

The 3 of them were pouring over the unsuitable for the young books and giggling non-stop at some book covers.

* * *

Ya, I was so annoyed and -.-". They were talking quite loudly lol. I'm guessin the ages of the 3 gals are nt more den 16. The generation of youth nowadays..... No comments abt them lol. They act as if they were very native n they seems to come from these villages de. 3 frogs in the well, that's wat they r.

Ya, I never managed to look at the comics as I noticed others looking at them oso. I wonder wat happen after I left.

Saturday, September 6, 2008
random post

Ok, I shld post abt some incidents which happen to mi. I was talkin to a friend on the phone.

Friday, September 5, 2008
Good day

Well after some days of not going out. Todae, I went out to meet 2 groups of friends. I met 3 of my ite friends in the afternoon, 7 of my mdc friends at night time.

Suki Sushi

Wednesday, September 3, 2008
Mother

Mother was in her forties when she gave birth to me. I had an elder sister who was 9 years older than me. Father passed away when I was 5 years old. Mother brought us up by herself all these years.

As long as I could remember, mother always wore a jade bangle with her. That jade bangle was very old and there were some cracks on it. She don’t like anybody to touch that and she never took out from her hand ever before.

Being the youngest, mother always doted on me; whatever I want she would never hesitated to buy or give me. With the only exception, that jade bangle.

People always long to get what they can’t have.

I was always begging her to let me touch that, let me wore that for awhile. She would always reject my wish and tried to give me something else.

* * *

Time passes very fast, I was 20 years old. Mother was still so precious of her jade bangle. It looked so old to me. I had always asked her to get rid of it but she would never take it off and throw it away.

One day I was carrying some heavy metal stuffs when I passed by her. While walking by her, her bangle got bumped onto the metal stuffs I was carrying. The jade bangle was badly scratched.

Mother was furious with me and we quarrel.

“It was just a bangle. It's nothing much and worthless. It was so old anyway.” I said. “You should just throw it away.”

She slapped me when she heard that. I was so angry with her. She had never slapped me before. I ran out of the house and she just kept examining at that bangle seeing if there are any further damages to it.

From that day onwards, I made up my mind never to talk to her again.

She had wanted to tell me she was sorry for slapping me and she wanted to make up for it but I refused to talk to her. I moved out of the house soon after that.

I knew I was in the wrong but my pride just refused to let me talk to her. We never talked for 10 years. Throughout the years, my sister was the only one I talked to. She would keep me updated with mother’s news. Despite my sister's countless pleads to ask me to forgive mother, I never went back. I would send part of my earning back to them.

I was thirty years old when I received news of my mom sick. She refused to leave the house. My sister contacted me to ask me to go back to see her for one last time. I reluctantly agreed to go back.

* * *

“W.K, mom has been asking for you throughout these years. She missed you very much.” My sister was telling me.

I was still feeling sore towards her. “That old bangle was more important to her than her son!”

“W.K, there are things that you don’t know. That bangle had a story to it.” My sister said.

“A story?” I was puzzled. “What story?”

“I will let mom tell you the story herself.” She said. “This is mom’s story.”

* * *

We went up to mother's room.

I knocked on the door.

“Come in.” My mom said.

We walked in. My mother was sitting on a rocking chair. There was a small table beside her. There was an old, dusty book on it. Mother was so pale and skinny. I knew that she doesn’t have much time left in her.

That jade bangle was still there on her hand. I flicked my eyes off when I saw that. Seeing that bangle makes me more angry.

“Mom…” I was still feeling stiff towards her.

“W.K, you have come back.” She said. “Come, it’s time that I told you something that you should have known long ago.”

“This is a story I owe you.” She continued. “You will understand when you know about it.” I stood beside her as I listened.

"What story?" I asked. "The story of that bangle?"

Mother was sitting up, pointing to that dusty book on the table. I picked up that book and opened it. It was actually a photo album.

There are lots of mom and dad's wedding photos. Flipping over the pages, I saw mom carrying a baby, smiling happily. Flipping over more pages and I could see the baby girl growing up on different photos. There was this familiar feeling that I have saw her before but I just couldn't remember.

"Is this sis you were carrying?" I asked.

"Yes but that is not me." My sister answered. "That is elder sis."

"Huh? What are you talking about?" I was puzzled.

“Well you see; you had 2 sisters.” My mom said to me.

“I had another sister? How come I never hear you or sis mention her before?” I asked.

“Nobody would dare to mention her when I am around.” mother paused for a while before replying. My sister was weeping silently.

"What happen?" I asked. At the last few pages of the photo album, I saw photos of my 2 sisters together. I saw a photo of my sisters holding up a baby me together and smiling. I took a closer look at my elder sister photo.

"How come I don't remember her?" I said. "What happen to her? Where is she now?"

“She was 18 years older than you. You were still quite small back then. You were only 2 years old at that time." She said.

"That time?" I asked.

"She was the first child of the family. She was very pretty, smart, cheerful and everything a mother could hope for. She always tops her classes no matter what. She was the apple of my eyes. As a reward, I bought her a jade bangle. Your sister loved that bangle very much and wore it whenever she went.

During school holiday, she was working to earn some extra cash. She was only 20 years old when she fell in love with her colleague. A guy who never completed his primary school education. Because of him, your sister was willing to give up her studies. Giving up her bright future just to be with him. Of course, I was furious when I knew it.

I locked up your sister and made her promise that she will never again look up for that guy. Your sister was very upset and refused to eat. She was heart-broken and cried everyday. One day that guy turn up and managed to break her window to get her free. She ran off with him. I heard the broken shattered glass and gave chase.

I chased after them streets after streets. I was running after them across a road when I slipped and fell down. When I stood up, I noticed a car approaching me fast. I was too shocked to react. Your sister saw that and she ran back, pushed me out of the way and got hit by the car instead.

I was horrified. She was bleeding badly. Before she died, she took out this bangle and put it on for me. She told me that she was sorry to disappoint me. She only wanted to live a life with him. She asked me to forgive her….. I wanted to tell her how much I loved her, how sorry I am towards her but she never got to hear me. She passed away in my arms after asking for my forgiveness.

From that day onwards, nobody would ever mention her in front of me again. Your dad, your neighbors…. There was this part of me which had died along with her. I never took off this bangle ever since she put it on for me. This bangle was the last thing she put on my hand. This was her favourite thing. This was my last memory of her.” My mother said with tears rolling off her eyes.

“Mom, I’m sorry.” I said, kneeling down beside the rocking chair. “I’m really sorry to you.” Tears were rolling down. "I never knew this bangle meant so much to you. I never knew it was elder sister's stuff."

“W.K. It’s ok.” She stroked my head. “I guessed you finally understand why that bangle was so precious to me. Right?”

“Yes.” I mumbled.

“I’m also sorry to you. I shouldn’t slap you. You never mean any harm to the bangle.” Mom said. “Forgive me, son.”

“Mom, you don’t need to say this, I should be the one to apologize.” I said.

“It had been bothering me for a very long time. I never forgot her, I only wanted the best thing for her. I also wished I could turn back time. Sometimes, I had those thoughts; if only I had not given chase, if only I agreed to that relationship. I had so many regrets. There are so many things I wished I have never done….” She said. “But I think it’s time that I let go…”

For the 1st time, I saw mother took out the jade bangle from her hand carefully.

She looked at it for one last time before putting it on the table and stared in front at an empty space as if there was someone standing there.

"Forgive me, daughter..." Mother was whispering. "I also wanted to tell you I'm sorry to you and please forgive me."

Gently rocking the chair, mother lie back on the rocking chair. She smiled peacefully and closed her eyes for the last time. Never to open them again.

* * *

戴在手上, 便也戴在心上.
傷在心上, 便也傷在手上.
不願碰的, 是那心上的傷.
不願摘的, 是那難捨的愛.

Labels: A Mother's love

Tuesday, September 2, 2008
Tues

Well, yesterdae went to recruit express for a short interview. The lady say she will help me find a temp job but I don't like her. She seems too serious as if she got little time to spare.

Monday, September 1, 2008
Values

Well, this post was actually meant to b my 100th post de but instead, I let it become the 103th post? Hahaha.

Recently, I have been posting up some of my collection on this blog. The purpose of this is becos of this post. Value.

Different things are of different value to different ppl. I too have my value stuffs. My collection are part of wat I value. Xiao Hu Dui albums, Little Twin Stars items, Movies, Songs, Manga, they mean differently to different ppl. Juz like Yc like S.H.E stuffs but S.H.E mean very little to mi. I like Carebears but it mean very little to Yc.

But no matter wat, these are the common things that ppl collect. The value of a particular item is also determine by ppl de. To a carebear collector, the most rare toys are those that were made from the past de. But to a non collector, the toys are just rubbish taking up spaces in their home.

I have got a boss who threw away her son's star wars toys recently. She bought those toys for him many yrs ago. Toys he played wif when he was young. That was rubbish to her but in fact star wars toys are worth a lot n she regretted her actions.

I have a so called precious box where I kept some of my precious items inside. They might not be expensive but whenever I c it, I will think back of the times back.



This is a watch Iat Wai gave mi. He gave mi during the SMM training. This was a watch he got for buying the energizer batteries. That was the time he was appointed to be the platoon IC week, he was so busy that week. I really missed the training days we had last time. Fun, laughing days.



This is a birthday gift Zhao Cai got for mi in 1997. Haha. 11 yrs liao. A fish sharpener.



This Bobdog was given to mi by Kwang Haw in 1997; my birthday present.



This is a keychain I bought for myself back in 1996. My horoscope Aquarius. Besides this, I oso bought a Libra keychain and a Scorpio keychain for Kwang Haw and Zhao Cai. As a so called memento of our friendships as we were kinda close during those days. Well after all these yrs, mine is still intact as I never used it and seal it in a plastic bag. I wonder how r theirs?



This is a small teddy bear Yan gave mi during my attactment in HK. Serene, Kayathiri and I were at her house visiting. She gave us 1 bear each. I have kept mine in the precious box.



This Hot Stuff keychain was given to mi by Charmine and Serene my SJAB juniors. They saw it at BPP and bought for mi. Haha. We had fun times during the SJAB days and I wonder how r they now?



Lastly, I bet you won't recognised this even if u c it. Da ge. This was the arcade token you have given to mi when you realised that there's no game for u to play wif 1 token at Vivo city arcade. Well, I still kept it after all as you were a special da ge to mi as well. N now it shall found its place in the precious box.





The meiji twinkle candy. This is a type of sweet I like to eat very much when I was young. Nowadays, it has disappeared from the shelf. It comes in 3 different favours. Apple, Grape, Grapefruit. Grape favour is the best wif apple the 2nd. Haha. I came across this apple candy box in 2000. I bought 4 boxes. I gave one of it to Lizhen. Now i am left wif 3. Even though the sweet can no longer b found, even though I missed eating the sweets. But at least it exist before. Here is the box to prove it.



Lastly, this is a note Thomas wrote for mi during my BMT days. I found this note on my bed underneath my pillow. This was written during my down days in BMT. I was sick with sickness. I am so tired wif the training. I couldn't find anyone to relate to. I was so miseable inside. Later that night as I went to my bed. I saw this note. It might mean nothing to Thomas now but it mean a lot to mi back then.

I was so happy when I found it. At least there was a friend for mi if I ever need him. Thanks, Thomas. Thank you for this note. I have kept it wif mi even till now. I think you have forgotten you have ever wrote this but thank you for ur concern back then.

Well, values... These r wat I values, memories I will think back. The time is different from the past liao. Nothing can go back liao. Sometimes, I juz wished.......